December 2010
I want to punch someone pretty. right in their pretty face.
'everyone's just out for their fucking selves'
I don't want to wake up tomorrow.
sleeepingwithghosts:
because i’ll be waking up alone
i feel so isolated. forgotten and invisible.
the only people i really text is my boyfriend and my best friend, but they never have credit. and the only people i really want to see is them, but i hardly ever see them. LOVE LIFE.
OH MY FUCKING GOD I might as well just give up on life now. so since I fail at fucking every xbox game my cousin gave me an ‘easy to understand one’ to borrow. Its fall out 3 and I’ve done literally two things and I’m fucking lost already! I don’t fucking know how to do anything. and the help is not much help because it just tells me to do things I DON’T KNOW...
I hate always being the first one to talk.
fuckyeahhotcakes:
It makes me feel…I don’t know, sad or needy or something.
cause when I look your never there, but I when I sleep your everywhere
I haven’t cried in weeks. I felt really upset the other day but I just couldn’t cry. Its kinda like there’s nothing left in me, like I don’t even have the energy to cry. there’s no effort or energy or motivation left in me at all. everything is just so uninspiring. I think I’ve turned into a zombie.
should i get xbox live or wow..? cause im kinda really keen on wow :3
I miss my sunshine so much.
just realising how much of a horrible fucking bitch I am. I’m constantly grumpy and in a bad mood and somehow it ends up being everyones fault. I’m not proud of it at all.
matt introduced me to wow today. and I’m not going to lie, I think its pretty fucking awsome and I wantttt. probably need more internets thow eh
I can’t even begin to describe how much I am over these ridiculous moods. I give up.
tahlulala asked: hey n_n yesss im deffinately coming to spend new years with you c:
i think i was invited to that party thingo anyway?? chrissybabes asked me >w<
but i was like D: i wont know anyone!
i think i was invited to that party thingo anyway?? chrissybabes asked me >w<
but i was like D: i wont know anyone!
GHSUDKAKIFYDTF
I can’t sleeeeeeeeeeep ); fuck fuck fuck fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck
I can’t sleep. my mind is going a million miles an hour and I feel all weird and horrible. like I don’t know what I want but I want something. like I don’t know what I’m meant to feel right now. I don’t know. I’m wide awake yet I’m so tired. I wish I could just stop thinking all together.
death is just the end of biological function, its...
tahlulala asked: hey n_n yesss im deffinately coming to spend new years with you c:
i think i was invited to that party thingo anyway?? chrissybabes asked me >w<
but i was like D: i wont know anyone!
i think i was invited to that party thingo anyway?? chrissybabes asked me >w<
but i was like D: i wont know anyone!
looking back on all the times I’ve said goodbye and never actually left. how much longer can I put this off. I can’t keep holding onto nothing.
unsatisfied.
I’m always un-fucking-satified.
had the most lovely christmas at brock’s, and had a lovely night in with him lastnight. now I’m at my nans with my sister and cousins, having a great lunch and swimming in the pool.. but I should be having fun right.. I should be fucking happy about all this. I’ve had the perfect christmas, I have the perfect boyfriend, I’m having the perfect day, everythings perfect, too...
merry fucking christmas and a happy fucking new year
don’t you hate it when someone is being really nice to you and you get really happy but then you realise their only being like that because they want something or you’ve done something for them. I keep forgetting how self centred everyone is and how much I don’t fucking matter to anyone.
i was mistaken. i dont feel alone, i am alone. completely fucking alone. all the fucking time.
‘whats the point, its all fucked anyway’
got a little blue dress with cherries on it for christmas. its two sizes too big for me and not even the one I wanted but ohwell.
can’t even play xbox, can’t even sit up :c
fuck this.
I’ve felt like shit all day. I can’t even sit up. Its like all the life has just been sucked out of me. hopefully I’m all better by saturday though. no. I have to be better by saturday. I’m spending christmas at brock’s with all his family. it will be lovely :)
i really just want my best friend.. and my boyfriend.. but i never get to see them. i just want to be with the people that care. and i want real friends, who truly care, and are there for me when i need. but noone is ever there for me. im always alone. or atleast it feels that way.
my best friends blog is like my thoughts in a nutshell. but it makes me really sad when shes upset. i just want to go and give her a big bear hug.
tahlulala: i have to get out of here i have to get... →
tahlulala:
i have to get out of here i have to get out of here i have to get out of here i have to get out of here i have to get out of here i have to get out of here i have to get out of here i have to get out of here i have to get out of here i have to get out of here i have to get out of here i have to…
tahlulala:
I AM RANK I AM A LOSER I HATE EVERYTHING I HATE WHO I AM FUCK EVERYONE FUCK MYSELF WHY AREN’T I DEAD YET?
tahlia, we can be rank, loser haters together. even though you are far from -.-
hello paranoia.
It's so hard to keep motivated, when you feel the...
tahlulala:
i wish you could see what you’ve done to me. because really. you’ve done nothing. noones done anything. ive done it all to myself. ive driven myself down and down and down, soo far, i can’t see the light anymore.
and I wonder if I ever cross your mind,
for me it happens all the time.
It’s a quarter after one, I’m all alone and I need you now.
said I wouldn’t call but I lost all control and I need you now.
and I don’t know how I can do without,
I just need you now.
I didn’t choose to be born into this world, if I had it my way I would’ve never been born at all. but I’ve found something good in all this constant shit. I want this to last.
Tahlia, I’m sorry this is the only way I can contact you right now, im on my phone atm but tomorrow I will text you my email address, and if your not online tomorrow night I’m just going to call you.. I love you.
no matter what I do to my hair its not going to change my heinous fucking face.
